The rich lifestyle - if only.

My dream last night was something different from usual, but I didn't sleep well. Went to bed around 12+ and then woke up around 4 something, tossed and turned and I cannot sleep back again till like around 6+.. 

In fact, I am beginning to feel its my normal sleep pattern. Either that or I will wake up at 6+ automatically.. 

Anyway, my dream last night was about the family home.

Outburst

I woke up from my sleep this morning crying badly.

I had another bout of those sad dreams again. It goes something like this...

The ONE song I hated

If there's a song I can say I hate, it is Warwick Avenue by Duffy..

No - it's not THE song that I hate, it's because of the way I learnt of the song and what it meant to me.. 

It was the breakup song for me with my 3rd ex.. There was no closure, but he asked and told me to go listen to this song and figure it myself.. No doubt the breakup was left hanging, I knew he was hurting as much as I was but I still couldn't, to this day, find a reason for it or why we parted.. 

It was more than 10 years already - I have learnt to let it go.. The best part is, my foreman still fondly remembers him after servicing his car ONCE and kept asking where has he disappeared now.. 

I suddenly recalled this song as I was singing with friends in the karaoke app, and then I came across this song.. sang it and shared why I hated it.. after I finished, emotions came back and I went offline.. 

Here's the lyrics, apart from the reference to Warwick Avenue tube station, everything else speaks for itself, as I highlighted in blue, as more than 95% of the lyrics was exactly what he wanted to say.. Duffy wrote this song for one of her ex-es by "accident"..

My OnlyFans

You may know it. 

You may not know it.

Yes I do have an OnlyFans account. In fact since last year during the first lockdown when I lost my job.

It has been a tough year and half. You will never understand how the uncertainties that surround you suddenly without a salary for months. In fact i was jobless for more than a year plus. 

My savings were very quickly depleted as the months go by and even with the EPF withdrawals, I could only get so far and for so long.

I have never publicised my OnlyFans account because I didn't know what to do with it, and that I didn't actually want anyone I know to know about it. 

Then I started slowly slipping hints here and there, and finally put it on my Twitter, albeit still without a link, only a mention of my OF name.

Along the way, I am thankful and grateful to the all those who subscribed and purchased my content. I don't know who my subscribers and purchasers are mostly, but that's the point, it kept me going and gave me motivation to post more. Seeing the numbers climb is what drives me.

Most of the videoclips I posted are of myself wanking off, with or without face, which I clearly marked and wrote as so.

I will continue to post contents on my OF because I am just a naughty boy.

Sidemount Diving

 On Sunday, I went to tryout sidemount. 

There are many types of configuration as to how you want to mount the tanks.

Basically only you will know how you set up your equipment because of so many things you have on your body, how you assemble the equipment is also important. 

You have two or three tanks and one regulator for each tank, straps to hold the tank, to hold regulator, plus all your normal accessories - camera, torch, lights, pointer stick, slate, dive com, compass etc.

Sidemount is also for you to progress to technical diving, tecrec etc.

One of the main benefits to dive with sidemount is for wreck and cave diving where overhead space can be limited.